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08:14pm 03/02/2005
 
mood: hopeful
music: Five = Faded
It's like talking to him, and listening to him, and reading stuff,

It gives me hope


but I don't know if I have the right to be hopeful, or if it's even a possibility. I guess i'll just have to keep my fingers crossed.

*crosses fingers*
  
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*sigh*   
10:17pm 03/11/2004
  There's so many things I want to say. But I can't. It's just too hard. I guess, in a way, what we've talked about is true. It's so easy to say, but just so hard to actually do.

And I can't do anything about it. He's interested in someone else, I can tell. And besides, who would like me?

But, in a way, I'm okay with it. I mean, I'm becoming friends with him. Decent friends.

So, I guess, I just hold out? Hoping?

I guess that's what I have to do. What other choice do I have?		  
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Him   
10:17pm 12/10/2004
 
mood: contemplative
music: Fall Back Down - Rancid
I think I like him...I mean, it's not really there, as it has been with others, but I can't tell if it's just getting to be decent friends or if I like him. I want to like him, but as I've found out, it isn't the best thing to say. It can ruin things.

Also, he's in a different social group. One that I find myself moving towards. Am I moving towards it because of him?

And he's a good person. We can talk about anything. From fate to weekend plans. But it's still early stages.

I don't know. How can I tell? Will anything happen?

I hope so...		  
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Fall   
03:28pm 21/05/2004
 
mood: contemplative
music: Bring Him Home-Les Miserables
So I'd rather fall
off the edge of the world
than tell the world
my little life.
that I worry,
that I cry,
that i think and ponder
and wonder why?
does it make me stronger?
does it help me understand?
will she help me find myself
the way others cant?
how long will she stay?
forever in my heart
or forever on a page?
I want to be selfish and
hold her all to me.
never letting go,
not letting her leave me
not letting her leave herself.
can I do it?
can I stand on the edge of the world
and support not just myself,
but her too?
she's standing there with me,
and I want her there for all of time
but how can I hold her here with me
with all of my selfishness?
  
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